Q&A: fear of baby preferring dad over mom

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Anonymous writes:

"I am the mom of an 8-month old boy. I work full-time, and my husband ismostly a stay-at-home dad. Our situation is pretty great, although I wish I worked 3 or 4 days a week instead of 5, but that's life, right? The thing that has come up since I returned to work though is that I've become surprisingly insecure about whether my son is more attached to his dad than to me. I hate feeling this insecure and emotionally needy with my own child and it isn't good for any of us, but I can't help feeling really afraid that he will be way more into daddy than me. I know toddlers often go through phases of strongly preferring one parent over the other, and I'm worried that it's going to be his dad and I will have a really hard time not taking that personally. I would love to hear from working moms with stay-at-home husbands who either (a) feel that their child is very strongly attached to them and can reassure me a little, or (b) have been through their kid being more attached to dad but got through it okay. If I'm really honest with myself, I want more of the reassurance that our situation can still lead to a very close mother-son bond, but I would like to hear both perspectives."

I know you know you can have a close relationship with your son. You know he loves you, that he knows you're his mom, and that he's always going to know that.

I know you know plenty of families that have SAH moms and WOH dads in which the kids are very close to their dads.

So it's not about whether you can form a close relationship. It's about your fear of how you're going to handle the different emotional stages your baby goes through if you're not there all day long with him. This is an issue not about your son and his bond with you or your partner, but about your conflict with not being at home with him more.

So that's what you have to work on. Because the readers and I can give you hundreds of data points proving that it's possible (even easy!) to have a great relationship with your kids while working fulltime (and think about all those adults who talk about how close they are to mothers who worked three jobs to feed them and were hardly ever home, so it's clearly not just about facetime), but until you come to terms with how much you're home and how much you're not, you're not going to be able to accept it in your heart.

It makes me hurt for you that this is turning into such an anxiety point for you. I feel like I was lucky when I went back fulltime--it was the only way I could get a divorce, so I knew I had no choice (since divorce was the only way for me to get my kids out of the middle of our toxicity). It doens't sound like you have come to terms with it, though. Is it possible that you feel like there's something different that you could be doing? If there is, you might want to explore whether that's a possibility so you know you've maximized your options.

I don't think it hurts most kids to be apart from their parents all day while their parents are at work. I do think it hurts some parents, though. So you owe it to yourself to figure out a way to be OK (or as OK as you can be) with your home/not home ratio or else there's always going to be some worry point for you.

Any advice or sympathy for Anon? Any reassurance that her son will have a good relationship with her? And ideas for helping make WOH easier on her emotionally?