Divorce, 2012 Holiday Edition
Once upon a time, I told my then-husband I wanted a divorce
a few days after Thanksgiving. That first December was hard. This is what I’ve
learned since then about the first post-split holiday season, and I offer it to
1. Let yourself be
sad. This time of year is chock full
of bullshit about being filled with the wonder of the season at every second.
You’re allowed to be sad, and you have a reason to be sad. Maybe you didn’t
like this time of year anyway, even before the divorce happened. Maybe you
always liked it before. If you liked it before, you’ll like it again. Just not
this year. This year sucks, and it’s ok to be sad. You’re feeling just what you
need to be feeling right now.
2. Look realistically
at what you feel like your kids are missing. If this is the first year
without their parents together for the holidays, your kids are going to feel
sad, and they’re going to feel like something’s missing. (No matter how many
toys you buy them.) That’s normal and ok. Next year will be better for them,
because by then it will be regular and not scary to be with each parent
separately. But this year they’ll need extra hugs. This is the part that hurts
in order to feel better.
3. Think about what
kind of family you want to be this time next year. This year is tough
because you’re feeling the sting of not being the family you (thought you) were
before. But next year at this time you’ll be a new family, one that’s honest
and loving and true. Spend some time thinking about what you want next December
to look like with your new improved family, and what you can do to get there
over the next year.
4. Think about what
you’re really missing. Are you missing the actual relationship? Being in a
relationship in general? Or the Holiday Fantasy Relationship? You might
actually be feeling great not to be with your soon-to-be-ex, but it still hurts
that no one’s going to surprise you with a car with a big red bow on it. Figure
out exactly what you’re missing, and let the parts you’re not missing drift out
of your mind. And see if you can’t get some of the stuff you are missing from
family and friends.
wallowing. Especially if you haven’t let yourself wallow yet, now might be
5a. I made you a
6. Accept. Accept
help. Accept invitations. Accept hugs. There are a lot of people who love you.
Let yourself be around them, even if you feel like crappy company. Brush your
teeth and put on a clean shirt and go when someone calls you. Let people be
7. Know that next
year will be better. I know, it’s awfully Pollyanna-ish to say. But it’s
true. Everyone said the first year was hard but the second year was easier. And
they were right. The third year is even easier. And by the fourth year this
will just be a faded Rothko painting in your memories. Except that you’ll be
stronger and better and deeper and softer where it matters.
You can do this. Courage.
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