Parenting Truths 21: Worry is normal

Worry is one of the jobs of parenting. Stuff that you never thought about for yourself--how often you poop, whether you should eat honey or not, how many inches you've grown in the last six months, whether your teacher likes you or not--becomes of paramount importance when it's about your kid.

That's all normal. I think it's biologically wired--if early people didn't worry and keep their infants close, those infants would be stolen by dingoes. We're still human, so it's still hardcoded in us to keep kids close and to worry about them. Thinking through the possibilities and how we'd deal with them helps us with mental flexibility and keeps us prepared for the inevitable crisis situations.

If your worry becomes so big that it takes over other parts of your life, and prevents you from having other emotions about your child and the other things you do, that's a sign that your hormones are out of whack and you need help. Tell your partner or a friend and they'll help you tell your doctor, and your doctor will get it straightened out. Overwhelming worry is treatable.

But normal worry, worry that's just one occasional emotion mixed in with all the other emotions, is part of being a parent. As your kids get older and more competent your worries will grow with them. But you'll be able to meet each stage, prepared. 

Parenting Truths 20: You're supposed to think your kid poops rainbows

I hear people apologizing for saying nice things about their kids all the time, and I don't get it. Why would you feel bad about thinking your kid is great? You're your kid's parent--it's your job to think your kid poops rainbows. 

If you don't, who will? Of course you don't always think they're amazing, or even like them in the moment, but for the most part you probably think they're amazing. And everyone deserves to be loved completely, even with their faults. If you don't think your kid is fanfreakingtastic, they'll have a much harder time later on accepting completely love from someone else as an adult. By being the president of your kid's fan club now, you set them up for happy relationships later.

Obviously you're still enforcing boundaries and teaching them how to interact responsibly with others and the world. But all with love, and not holding back the sense of wonder that this amazing person is your kid! So enjoy every interesting, weird, funny, excellent, magical thing about your kid, and feel good about enjoying it.

Parenting Truths 19: You can (and should) say "yes"

Boundaries are amazingly important. But so is having fun and being joyful with your kids. Say "yes" as often as you can.

Say "yes" to being silly, to ice cream for dinner, to dance-offs, to leaving the kids with a babysitter so you can go out with your friends. Say "yes" to going on day trips together, to finding fairy doors, to making play dough, to playing soccer in the yard in the summer and the basement in the winter. Say "yes" to putting your toes in the sand, to running through the sprinkler, to catching lightning bugs. 

Say "yes" to things that feed your spirit and nourish you, alone and with your kids.

You spend so much time making sure they have everything they need. Spend some time making sure you all do the things you want, too.

"Our lives shall not be sweated from birth until life closes;

Hearts starve as well as bodies; give us bread, but give us roses!"

 

Parenting Truths 18: You can (and should) say "no"

When they're really little, we're so afraid of harming their gentle spirits that it can be tempting not to say "no." Ever. Instead we redirect, or give two choices, or do something else that guides them into doing what we want them to do without having to say "no."

But being a parent is about teaching your child how to be a person in the world, and in order to have harmonious personal relationships and contribute to society, a person has to understand limits and boundaries and appropriate behavior. And the only way to learn boundaries and appropriate behavior is for loving adults to make and enforce age-appropriate boundaries from the time you're tiny.

So it's ok to say "no" when it's not good for your child to do something. Or even when you simply don't want your child to do something. It's ok to wean, to limit cookies or screen time or jumping on the couch, to force them to write thank-you notes, to give up their seats for older people, to let you eat your meal in peace. You don't have to justify saying "no," either, although you'll do more teaching if you tell them why so they can start sorting out what is and isn't acceptable. Kids need boundaries. They'll push against them, for sure--that's what growing and developing is for. But if you don't enforce any boundaries they won't have any to push against, and they won't develop the way you want them to.

So say "no" with love, and stay firm, and your kids will grow up with healthy senses of themselves in the world.

Parenting Truths 17: You can ask for help

Parents aren't meant to do this alone. Children are a common good, for one thing, so it benefits everyone to help parents raise children. And this whole nuclear-family-one-or-two-adults-alone-in-a-house-with-children-24-7 thing is extremely new historically and totally maladaptive, IMO.

So ask for help when you need it. Ask for help before you need it. 

You may be emotionally hurt by parenting, or lonely, or just done. That's all normal. A chat with a friend or relative who loves you and will let you vent without telling you to be grateful can be just the thing to give you the strength to get through bedtime. Reach out when you need validation, commiseration, or just someone to tell you they like you.

If you have a partner, make sure your partner gets as much of a chance to do childcare as you do, so they can develop their parenting skills and form a bond with your child that doesn't go through you. And then if you're feeling fried, you can ask your partner to wrangle the kids while you recharge. (If you're being proactive, you'll work it out so each of you gets alone time regularly, so neither of you gets to the fried point.)

And whether you have a partner or not, you should start building a support network of friends and neighbors you can ask for help sometimes. If they like you, they are probably willing to take your kids for a few hours while you go to an appointment or recharge. But they probably don't think to offer, so you don't know until you ask.

Parenting is long, hard, tiring, occasionally demoralizing work. You don't have to white-knuckle through it alone. Reach out, whether you need emotional support or the physical presence of someone else, and your friends will be there for you. You don't have to do it alone.

Parenting Truths 16: It hurts you more when they leave than it hurts them

Expanding on what I said yesterday about knowing that it's good when they don't need you anymore, another truth is that it hurts you more when they leave than it hurts them.

When your children leave you it's to go to a fun babysitter, or preschool, or summer camp, or college. Someplace fun and new with things to do and learn and new friends to make and wings to stretch out and theories to test. In the meantime, you're stuck at home alone or on a plane somewhere or at your desk at work. And it's not that thrilling and you wonder how your child is doing and you miss their sweet little head.

Yes, there are times when you're dying to get away from them for a bit, when you're jumping out of your own skin from being touched or want to rip your ears out rather than hear "Whyyyyyyy???" one more time. And there are times when your kids really, really, REALLY want to be with you. But for the most part, your kids are more excited about leaving you than you are about their leaving. And when they're gone you feel more of a hole than they do.

That's good. It means you've given them enough to have confidence in themselves and to feel secure without you. So while it can sting a little that they don't feel as homesick for you as you do for them, it's all part of creating wonderful people who can go into the world with confidence.

Parenting Truths 15: The better a parent you are the less they need you

This one hits me hard every few months: The better a job I do at teaching my kids to love and trust themselves and find home within, the less they'll need me eventually. The measure of my success will be that they don't need me to lead them or buffer things for them anymore. Whether they go away geographically or not, they'll take the reins of their own lives.

Kids need to grow out of needing their parents. As much as we want to keep doing things for them, keep helping them with their emotions, keep owning the sweet smells of their heads and their gorgeous peals of laughter, it's not healthy to hold on so tightly. We scaffold and support and nurture and teach, until our children can do everything they need to do to be functioning members of society. Without us.

So the better we are at parenting, the more able they'll be to fly away from us.

The good news is that the better a parent any of us is the more they'll want to be around us later. Eventually. Once they've done doing everything they want to do. And when they have kids of their own. Wanting to be near us is better than needing to be near us, because it implies choice, and deep love, and interdependence instead of dependence.

Keep going. Keep doing it right. 

Parenting Truths 14: You owe your kids the truth

If you were watching all the feeds and then the media blackout from Ferguson, MO, last night like I was, you were thinking about how you'd explain what happened to your kids. And maybe you thought you wouldn't have to say anything to your kids about it. If they're preschoolers or toddlers, you don't, but if they're elementary school and above, it's one of those things they'll hear about whether or not you tell them. You owe your kids the truth, and your owe your kids guidance dealing with the hard things. So talk to them about it.

I wrote this post last year when I was thinking about what my white kids needed to know about the Zimmerman verdict, and I think everything in it is applicable to what happened in Ferguson over the past 6 days. It's really REALLY important for kids to know what their world is about. Even when that's unpleasant. If you tell them, you can help them think about it. If you let them hear about it somewhere else, they have no help from you to process it.

So please, talk to your kids about racism, privilege, institutionalized bias of all types, and the fact that we can all stop it, but only by exposing it whenever we encounter it.

Parenting Truths 13: The past is your ally

All of us had childhoods. Those of us who were lucky want to replicate a lot of what the people who took care of us did, or build on it. Others who weren't so lucky want to do everything differently. Most people want to do something in between what happened to us.

This means that the past is our biggest help, because it's our biggest teacher. You know what happens when you treat a child the way you were treated under the conditions you were raised in--you're the outcome of that treatment. (If you have any siblings who were treated the same way, they're the outcome of that treatment, too.) If you account for the differences between your childhood situation and your children's situation, you can predict what will happen to your children if you treat them the same way you were treated. And you can adjust your parenting from that to get the results that you want tot get.

The past can hurt and be hard to confront. But it's the best information you have about how children grow and develop, so it's worth putting in the time and analysis and friction to consider carefully how you were raised and how that affected you.

You can choose any future you want. But only if you look at the past with clear eyes and learn the lessons it teaches you. You and your kids are worth it.

Parenting Truths 12: You'll have to talk about hard things

I have depression. So I've talked to my kids about depression for years, so they know what it is, and that they have a risk for it, and how it may or may not affect them.

It's only one of the hard things we've talked about (divorce is another one that we live every day) so they're used to my sitting them down and telling them we need to talk about something that I trust them enough to understand. 

You are going to have to have some hard conversations with your kids. I hope you'll talk to them about depression and divorce, even if those don't touch your family as intimately as they touch mine. But you'll talk to them about all sorts of things that happen that we wish we didn't have to confront. The only way for them to learn about the world is either to hear it from you or to live it. And I'm guessing you'd rather have their introduction to the bad things be with you to help. So don't be afraid of the tough conversations, because that's where you build trust. You can do it.

By request: I've been asked to link to my post about my friend Ray's suicide, "Don't go." I wrote it five years ago for Ray, but it's for everyone who's gone or who's ever considered going: http://askmoxie.org/blog/2009/10/dont-go.html

Stay crisp.

Parenting Truths 11: No one comes out unscathed

No matter what you do, you aren't going to parent your children perfectly. And even if you could be the perfect parent, there are too many other things that happen to people in their first 18 years that hurt them. No one comes out of childhood unscathed.

Everyone could go to therapy. A lot of us roll along, functioning decently. But we'd probably all be better off if we spent six months seeing a good therapist who could help us identify and come to terms with the stuff that happened when we were kids, and then help us make a plan to act in ways that lead us to connection and fulfillment instead of re-enacting old hurts and patterns.

This is just life. No matter how many things you do correctly. No matter how many good decisions you make. No matter how attentive or correct or research-backed or selfless or good-enough you are, your kids are of this world, so they're going to be hurt somehow at some point.

You can feel despair about it, or you can realize that this releases you from having to be perfect and instead allows you to be better. Knowing that SOMETHING is going to hurt your kids, you get to minimize the big things that are in your control. You get to pick what you protect them from and what you let them experience. What they learn to handle early and what you scaffold them in for longer. Being mindful of their individual personalities, and of your own resources.

And you know that there are some things that you can't control. All you can do is be there to help your kids through them, so they don't have to process alone.

And then, when your kids are adults, and they start working through the stuff that happened when they were kids, stay close. You know you did the best you could, so you don't have to justify yourself. Listen with open ears and an open heart. Be willing to analyze and debrief when your kids need to. Apologize if things got past you that hurt them. Know that as your kids come to terms with things you can stay close if you stay open.

Life is hard. But we have each other.

Parenting Truths 10: Your kids are going to think about things you don't know anything about

I remember when my older son was a baby and I couldn't wait to find out what he was thinking about. And then he started talking, and I knew what he was thinking during every waking moment. It was strange, this intimate knowledge of someone else's inner life, but I loved it. And then suddenly he started talking about things I knew nothing about, and I realized he had a life that didn't involve me in every moment anymore.

It happens with every child. Eventually they develop an interest in something you know nothing about, and you suddenly know that at some point that child will have a whole big wide life that isn't anchored to you.

Maybe it's dinosaurs. Or Greek myths. With my son it was baseball statistics. He was five years old, and he became obsessed with baseball and baseballs stats. I don't like baseball and I have no interest in baseball stats, so I wan't even tempted to try to cram to catch up to him. I just let him tell me what he knew, and feigned interest so he knew I always wanted to hear what he had to say. And you'll listen and marvel at where your child's interests lie, and let them talk and talk and talk (even when you really don't care about the content of what they're saying).

One of my friends attended her son's PhD dissertation defense last week. Someday this will be you. Or maybe it won't be a dissertation defense, but it'll be a promotion at work, or some sort of award, or even just listening to your kid explain something they're really good at to someone else. You'll be just as proud then as you are the first time, and a lot less surprised.

It's good when you get to the part of the conversation in which your child is teaching you new things.

Parenting Truths 9: Parenting hurts (physically)

This is something no one tells you: Being a parent is like doing CrossFit with a really strong, risk-taking, ill-tempered-but-adorable monkey trainer. You will sustain physical injuries.

Let's not even talk about pregnancy and delivery. Let's talk about tennis elbow and tendinitis from carrying the baby. Back problems from hunching over while feeding the baby. Concussions from toddlers and preschoolers. Chronic sleep problems.

This is no joke. It's painful, and it's hurtful, too. Physical pain hurts your feelings. And most of this pain happens long before your child is old enough to understand and be careful of you physically.

There will be a day, however, when your child begins to understand that they can take as much care with you as you take with them. When your child starts protecting you and your body as much as you protect your child. It takes years, and a lot of stress on your body, to get to that part of the conversation. But you'll get there.

In the meantime, lift with your legs.

Parenting Truths 8: Parenting hurts (emotionally)

Ouch. Nothing breaks your heart like feeling rejected by your child. (Unless it's feeling like you failed your child.) Whether it's as simple as your baby refusing to nurse, or pushing away food you've made, or saying "I hate you!" The 3.5-year horribleness or the 9-year-old tantrums. The eye rolling or the not wanting to be kissed in public anymore.

But as I said yesterday, remember that this is a long, looooooong conversation you have with your child. Not everything is going to be good. Some of it is going to be bad. Some of it will hurt your heart. But as the parent, you owe it to yourself not to get too hurt. Instead of thinking it's about you, listen to the feeling behind your child's behavior, and see if you can help your kid get through whatever it is. Refusing to nurse? Could be teething pain, a nursing strike, overtiredness. You can help. Pushing away food? Greater need for independence, so you can start giving two limited choices so your kid feels empowered. Saying "I hate you"? What is your child feeling pushed by that's making them feel so powerless and defensive.

Yes, it hurts, but the rejection of your child is just the symptom. If you can stay quiet and listen even more closely, you can figure out how to help your child manage their feelings and the situation better. And then you'll be able to move on to a better part of the long conversation.

You're doing this.

 

Parenting Truths 7: This is a long conversation

I've written about this before: Parenting is a loooooong conversation with your kid. I touched on it yesterday, that you get years and years to watch your child's personality unfold. But you also get all those years to communicate. 

Everything you do is part of the conversation. Every hug. Every fight. Every time you help your child learn a new skill. Every time you scold your child for not doing something. Every time you discipline your child or teach your child or praise your child. Every heart-to-heart you have. Every time they ask you about sex and you answer (or, unfortunately, don't answer). It's all part of this epic conversation that lasts for as many decades as you're lucky enough to have together.

That means that no one interaction is going to ruin things. Even a long stretch of bad interactions won't ruin things. As long as you can keep the conversation as loving and supportive as it can be, occasional bad interactions won't knock things off the track.

Play the long game. Decide what you want the conversation to feel like, for you and for your child. And then keep returning to that whenever you can, even when an interaction goes poorly.

Courage.

Parenting Truths 6: Your kid is going to be the same person forever

In those early days, when your baby is slowly waking up from being inside the womb for so long and learning to interface with the outside world, you pay attention so carefully. You watch how your child moves, how your child approaches the world and taking in information, and how your child interacts with other people.

Flash forward ten years and your child moves and takes in info and interacts the same way.

Flash forward another ten years, another thirty years, and it's the same thing.

Parenting your child is about knowing what to facilitate and what to scaffold, what to help manage and what to encourage. But your child is going to be the same essential person forever. That means that as you grow together you get to know and understand each other more and more, and learn what makes each of you bloom.

It's a big chance to learn to love each other the way you each need to be loved. As the parent, you get to guide that. And it starts by watching carefully, and being open to who this wonderful little person is. And then helping them become even more of that as they grow in skills and ability to communicate.

It's a wonderful life, this chance to love someone for decades, and to watch how they unfold.

Parenting Truths 5: You will fail

There's that quote "What would you do if you knew you could not fail?" But that makes no sense to me. No one who tries anything is fail-proof. I'd rather ask, "What would you do if you knew you'd fail repeatedly but that failure would lead to success you can't even imagine now?"

Would you try? Of course you would. Because the results are worth it, even if the shame and guilt of failure stings in the moment. This is life. And this is parenting.

You are going to fail. You'll fail yourself whenever you aren't the parent you want to be or think you should be. You'll fail in your non-parent life and duties because sometimes life is too overwhelming and you have too much on your plate. And you'll fail your kids sometimes, too.

That's the one that stings the most. When you fail your kids. The first time your child is in your arms you look at that sweet face and vow never to do anything that will hurt them. But part of being human is being flawed. Making mistakes. Sometimes making mistakes that really hurt someone. But hurting your child doesn't mean everything's broken. It means you learn to repair things. It means you take the rubbed spots and that's where you grow closer. Stronger at the scars.

The only way to avoid failing as a parent is not to be a parent. And you're a parent, so you'll fail sometimes. Be gentle with yourself, then rub some dirt on it and hug your kid and get back in there. You're worth it, and so are your kids.

Parenting Truths 4: You are not SuperMom (or SuperDad)

There's a whole culture of calling parents who are doing a lot of things "SuperMom!!" or "SuperDad!!" that is meant to praise, but is instead really constricting.

Because it assumes that we a) want to be doing all this stuff, and b) should be doing all this stuff, and c) aren't being negatively affect by all this stress. It assumes the busier is better. That doing it alone with no help is somehow honorable. That "making it look easy" is praise-worthy.

But the truth is that we're tired and stressed and sometimes lonely. We're doing too much, because we have to. And sometimes because in order to do the things that we love, we have to add them on to all the stuff that just has to get done. And it doesn't mean there's anything particularly valiant or morally superior or even extra-strength about us. It just means we're making it, one day at a time.

If you are making it, one day at a time, good for you. If you're making it look easy because you don't express stress externally, that's great. If you're making it because you ask for help, that's great. If you're making it because you complain through it, that's great. Whatever gets you through the crucible of being a parent along with everything else you have to do. Try to give yourself breaks, and don't worry about making sure all your self-care is organic and hand-picked and healthy. Sometimes you just want to sit alone in your car and listen to The Low-End Theory all the way through while eating Red Vines. And that's ok.

You are a person. Who has kids and a bunch of other stuff to take care of. And sometimes you keep all the balls in the air and sometimes you don't. But you're still you, and you're still worthy, even if you don't have a cape or a smile on your face.

Keep going.

Parenting Truths 3: It's still early in the game

Unless your kids are 40, it's still really early in your parenting career. And a lot is going to change.

It can feel pretty bleak when you're going through sleepless nights with a baby, or the willfulness of a two-year-old, or any minute of every day of having a 3.5-year-old. And you may be wondering if it's ever going to get better. But those kids are still so little, and it's all going to change. Even when your kids are 7, or 12, or 16, it still all changes all the time.

You are having a long conversation with your child, and it's going to last the rest of your lives. This tough part at the beginning feels so high stakes but it's actually such a small little preliminary chat in comparison to the deep emotional discussions you'll have later.

Pace yourself. There's a lot more (and a lot more fun) still to come. It changes, and gets easier, and then harder, and then easier, and then harder. But it always changes.

You are doing it. 

Parenting Truths 2: Parenting taps into a lot of anger

This one can be hard to process, especially if you were raised not to acknowledge or express anger. Parenting can tap into a lot of anger, even serious rage, at all kinds of people and situations. It's a combination of the parenting hormones (which parents develop from contact with their kids, so parents who didn't give birth to their kids also develop these hormones) and the intensity of the love and stress of caring for kids. Suddenly you see things with new eyes, and you're more attuned to vulnerability and injustice, to power imbalances and to cruelty of all sorts. All that can tap into anger you never knew you had (or had already worked to balance or overcome).

It can be scary, this anger. You may not feel anger at your actual child until they're older than baby age (or maybe you do--that's ok, too), but the feeling of rage at the injustices in the world and how little control you have over things can wash over you when you least expect it and feel least equipped to deal with it. It comes in waves, and tends to crest whenever your child is entering a new phase that requires new skills or focus from you. And then once you get your feet under you again it'll subside.

It's all normal and ok, unless the anger feels like it's taking over your emotions completely and preventing you from engaging or enjoying things. If the anger feels like it's bigger than it should be, talk to someone. This is a symptom of hormonal imbalance or PPD (men and mothers who didn't give birth also get PPD), and you need to talk your way through it with someone who knows how to help you deal with it and get it back to its proper, manageable mass in your life.

(Don't forget Day 1: You can do it. You can do it and you are doing it.)